Bye, Bye Bloggie....

This post from a 23 year old blogger breaks my heart.

My mental state is collapsing and deteriorating almost daily. It's so consistent you could practically graph it. My life is falling apart at an equally alarming rate, and yet I feel like doing nothing to salvage it. I feel like I'm standing at the bottom of one of the WTC towers, watching it come down on me, floor by floor, knowing I'll be blown to atoms, yet unable to move.

See what I'm talking about? I've gone from cynicism to hatred to sadness in a few paragraphs. I'm a broken shell of what I used to be. Like Humpty Dumpty, I also doubt very seriously if I can ever be put back together. I'm dissatisfied and miserable beyond measure and no amount of medication, therapy, or vacation seems able to change that. That's not the kind of person I want to be for you all.

I suspect there's a great number of folks these days who feel equally powerless and ineffective, shit...I know I do. I struggle with it daily.

I believe the most telling moment in the post is this one: That's not the kind of person I want to be for you all.

The question I would ask is: who do you want to be for yourself -- regardless of an audience.